Inner peace
Reminds you of Kungfu Panda? Well, it's not the kungfu-dance-with-a-rain-drop-and-control-matter inner peace that I am talking about. Now that we know that this isn't about how you get superpowers, let's begin.
The inner peace I am talking about is that moment when you feel relaxed to the depths of your soul. That song, a drive in the rain or maybe just lying on your bed in silence at 3 am in the morning. It's that feeling when your soul sighs, satisfied.
Some people find this in the arms of someone they love or sitting in a crowded place on a sunny afternoon sipping their coffee. But since this post is about me, what inner peace means to me is what I will write about.
Let me start with a short flashback. Back in India, there were some old storage houses in the upper level of my house. I would climb on top of the roofs of these houses(the climber that I am) and that was half the fun of me wanting to go there, that I would get to climb and sit on this one roof which had a beautiful view of a flyover and a watch tower. Coming back from school, cleaning up, finishing up my homework as soon as possible and running upstairs with a tinkle or reader's digest or Amar Chitra Katha or some good Enid Blyton and sitting in that lovely evening sun and watching the sunset from there was the definition of bliss. I would know its time to go back home when the police academy(which the watch tower was a part of) started sounding their horns at 6 pm sharp or when the mosquitoes started eating me alive. But until then I would just sit there, letting my face get warm under the heat of the sun, reading, looking at the motor vehicles passing by on the flyover and think 'I wonder where they are going' and cook up stories in my head. For me, inner peace is that when you can just shut down your brain and not think. Just stare at the things happening around you and into nothingness. Just sit in the sun and revel in its warmth smiling to yourself. That moment when you feel the universe is hugging you and you hug it back. And then, your soul sighs, satisfied.
I know it wasn't something I did every day or even every week, but I knew that I could always go up there. And I know this was when I was young and I guess in middle school, but these things stay with you. I realized it then, that it's possible to feel that way, of not wanting to be anywhere but there, right at that moment.
It doesn't have to be a beach, or a drive or a lake, it's wherever you are to be in that moment of feeling that you don't want to be anywhere else right now but here.
As I grew up, a school was built blocking the view, and the sound of traffic drowned the sound of the horns. And I moved on to find other places and things that gave me the same feeling.
But, even after all these years, all I have to do is close my eyes and I can feel the warmth of the sun on my cheeks and that view with the horns singing in the background.
The inner peace I am talking about is that moment when you feel relaxed to the depths of your soul. That song, a drive in the rain or maybe just lying on your bed in silence at 3 am in the morning. It's that feeling when your soul sighs, satisfied.
Some people find this in the arms of someone they love or sitting in a crowded place on a sunny afternoon sipping their coffee. But since this post is about me, what inner peace means to me is what I will write about.
Let me start with a short flashback. Back in India, there were some old storage houses in the upper level of my house. I would climb on top of the roofs of these houses(the climber that I am) and that was half the fun of me wanting to go there, that I would get to climb and sit on this one roof which had a beautiful view of a flyover and a watch tower. Coming back from school, cleaning up, finishing up my homework as soon as possible and running upstairs with a tinkle or reader's digest or Amar Chitra Katha or some good Enid Blyton and sitting in that lovely evening sun and watching the sunset from there was the definition of bliss. I would know its time to go back home when the police academy(which the watch tower was a part of) started sounding their horns at 6 pm sharp or when the mosquitoes started eating me alive. But until then I would just sit there, letting my face get warm under the heat of the sun, reading, looking at the motor vehicles passing by on the flyover and think 'I wonder where they are going' and cook up stories in my head. For me, inner peace is that when you can just shut down your brain and not think. Just stare at the things happening around you and into nothingness. Just sit in the sun and revel in its warmth smiling to yourself. That moment when you feel the universe is hugging you and you hug it back. And then, your soul sighs, satisfied.
I know it wasn't something I did every day or even every week, but I knew that I could always go up there. And I know this was when I was young and I guess in middle school, but these things stay with you. I realized it then, that it's possible to feel that way, of not wanting to be anywhere but there, right at that moment.
It doesn't have to be a beach, or a drive or a lake, it's wherever you are to be in that moment of feeling that you don't want to be anywhere else right now but here.
As I grew up, a school was built blocking the view, and the sound of traffic drowned the sound of the horns. And I moved on to find other places and things that gave me the same feeling.
But, even after all these years, all I have to do is close my eyes and I can feel the warmth of the sun on my cheeks and that view with the horns singing in the background.
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